the bible

i eat too many sausages
thats the only thing thats been in my fridge for a week.. besides a brita water filter.

no matter how many plans fall apart, theres always something to fill its place. if i actually quit school and film, and just decided to do porn i think i would actually make a decent living. ive had to turn down about 5 shoots just this month just due to school and production days.

in other news, the london trip that i was supposed to go on has now supposedly been postponed a couple weeks. so ive spent the past several days (my spring break) trying to get ahead in my homework so that i can actually leave for a week without being totally academically fucked. and i was stressing out even more because this weekend i was going to be working non-stop on my friend's spec commercial, but apparently some things fell apart last minute and that, too, has to be postponed. i felt really bad for said friend because this is like the third time something like this has happened to her. but the lack of commitment to the shoot let me relax yesterday and go out with a couple friends to a few gay clubs in west hollywood. i ended the night losing my socks in some cute boy's car (i dont even remember his name. jesus), and running down the street (in the wrong direction) trying to find my friends' car, and ride home... i did make it into my bed by 3am. and even though im working today, its not until the evening. so it should all be good.

i should really spend the day writing since ive abandoned my goal ever since i moved (ive written maybe 3 pages of my book since then... awful). realistically, i dont now if thats going to happen. i need to go pick up some checks and figure out my food situation. im out of sausages and have been eating too much fast food, though not really much food in general, so my calorie intake has been pretty low and my energy output quite high. which is why ive been fucking tired lately. at least my abs look okay.

also... rediscovered jay brannan... bought his album, "goddamned" on itunes. fucking amazing. especially the song "goddamned."

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