me (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} penisxcore) wrote, |
no problem ;) got to throw in the good tidbits.
but really, i have no problems discussing it with you. and although there are some people who read my LJ, its not as public as my other "social networking" sites. theres probably about 5-20 people who may visited this page regularly. and right now, its probably closer to five.
and yes, i realize you werent too happy with me when i first decided to do porn, but neither were a lot of people. i mean its hard to say what my real intentions were at the beginning because theyve probably changed... but im definitely not in a bad place as a result of it. the only thing it may do is become a stigma in my "other" career... but maybe not. i dont exactly want to work for disney, you know?
but no, theres definitely not the same kind of pressure off camera. even if someone thinks im going to give them the best sex ever, i dont really care. its like im confident enough in that department to be at least "good," you know. i think the opposite actually happens though. people think they have to be all porno with me, which isnt necessarily a bad thing. like they need to bust out their best BJ skills or something. but in my personal life, i just like it to be more intimate because thats what porn ultimately lacks. i dont mean intimate like soft and sensual and you just stare into each others eyes. it can still be rough or whatever it ends up being. its just theres much more acknowledgement that youre interacting with another person.
as for people thinking that i cant do it because i bomb a scene every once in a while.... well, pretty much every guy in the industry has a bad day here and there. it has nothing to do with libido. its just a different environment, and sometimes youre just not feeling it. we all take viagra and cialis, or other stuff. god knows, ive shot up my dick for a while. the thing is... if every scenario was your own personal fantasy, every guy could do it. but its not. my job is to fulfill anyone's fantasy with any type of girl, no matter what. thats why its a job. if it happens to fit into your own fantasy, well thats when its a great job. if not, it can fucking suck.
and periods: girls work all the time on their periods. they douche and then stick a makeup sponge in their pussy. sometimes you get some blood on your dick. we just stop the scene briefly and wipe it off.
but really, i have no problems discussing it with you. and although there are some people who read my LJ, its not as public as my other "social networking" sites. theres probably about 5-20 people who may visited this page regularly. and right now, its probably closer to five.
and yes, i realize you werent too happy with me when i first decided to do porn, but neither were a lot of people. i mean its hard to say what my real intentions were at the beginning because theyve probably changed... but im definitely not in a bad place as a result of it. the only thing it may do is become a stigma in my "other" career... but maybe not. i dont exactly want to work for disney, you know?
but no, theres definitely not the same kind of pressure off camera. even if someone thinks im going to give them the best sex ever, i dont really care. its like im confident enough in that department to be at least "good," you know. i think the opposite actually happens though. people think they have to be all porno with me, which isnt necessarily a bad thing. like they need to bust out their best BJ skills or something. but in my personal life, i just like it to be more intimate because thats what porn ultimately lacks. i dont mean intimate like soft and sensual and you just stare into each others eyes. it can still be rough or whatever it ends up being. its just theres much more acknowledgement that youre interacting with another person.
as for people thinking that i cant do it because i bomb a scene every once in a while.... well, pretty much every guy in the industry has a bad day here and there. it has nothing to do with libido. its just a different environment, and sometimes youre just not feeling it. we all take viagra and cialis, or other stuff. god knows, ive shot up my dick for a while. the thing is... if every scenario was your own personal fantasy, every guy could do it. but its not. my job is to fulfill anyone's fantasy with any type of girl, no matter what. thats why its a job. if it happens to fit into your own fantasy, well thats when its a great job. if not, it can fucking suck.
and periods: girls work all the time on their periods. they douche and then stick a makeup sponge in their pussy. sometimes you get some blood on your dick. we just stop the scene briefly and wipe it off.
