youre not a bad friend. we just live far away and dont interact too often. it happens. if youre guilty, then i am too. but thank you. i love you too. im coming up on the third of august through the 10th. you better hang out with me at least for a day. i want to go to the river.

also, call me because i dont know if i have your current phone number.

as for aurora, i know... that sucks. i was hoping to see her on my visit. but i guess ill wait til your wedding. she promised shed be there. and she says to put us at the same table.

i do have regular vanilla sex with people outside of porn. not too often just because its not always available. but for the most part, id rather have sex with normal girls than porn girls. at least i fantasize about it more often. just because someone does porn doesnt mean their personal sex life is better... what we do on camera is often uncomfortable. i like "civilians." its more about chemistry. you get to make out a lot more, no pressure, etc.. etc... i just dont think a lot of non-porn girls really want to have sex with me if they find out what i do... unless its for the novelty factor. because most people equate sex with relationships, and a guy who fucks people for a living isnt really boyfriend material in the eyes of most people. i mean im not really looking for a relationship right now, but i seek out partners just like anybody else. it just seems more complicated in the real world.

but no... no snobbery. the only thing that was sort of a reality check recently was when a non-porn girl didnt take an enema before she told me to fuck her ass... so that can be messy. hah.