me ([info]penisxcore) wrote,
@ 2009-03-20 11:37:00
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i eat too many sausages
thats the only thing thats been in my fridge for a week.. besides a brita water filter.

no matter how many plans fall apart, theres always something to fill its place. if i actually quit school and film, and just decided to do porn i think i would actually make a decent living. ive had to turn down about 5 shoots just this month just due to school and production days.

in other news, the london trip that i was supposed to go on has now supposedly been postponed a couple weeks. so ive spent the past several days (my spring break) trying to get ahead in my homework so that i can actually leave for a week without being totally academically fucked. and i was stressing out even more because this weekend i was going to be working non-stop on my friend's spec commercial, but apparently some things fell apart last minute and that, too, has to be postponed. i felt really bad for said friend because this is like the third time something like this has happened to her. but the lack of commitment to the shoot let me relax yesterday and go out with a couple friends to a few gay clubs in west hollywood. i ended the night losing my socks in some cute boy's car (i dont even remember his name. jesus), and running down the street (in the wrong direction) trying to find my friends' car, and ride home... i did make it into my bed by 3am. and even though im working today, its not until the evening. so it should all be good.

i should really spend the day writing since ive abandoned my goal ever since i moved (ive written maybe 3 pages of my book since then... awful). realistically, i dont now if thats going to happen. i need to go pick up some checks and figure out my food situation. im out of sausages and have been eating too much fast food, though not really much food in general, so my calorie intake has been pretty low and my energy output quite high. which is why ive been fucking tired lately. at least my abs look okay.

also... rediscovered jay brannan... bought his album, "goddamned" on itunes. fucking amazing. especially the song "goddamned."



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[info]592311
2009-03-21 02:39 am UTC (link)
Oh school...are you close to graduating though? Maybe you can try to hang if you're almost done; but circumstances change and shit happens. Don't spread yourself too thin!

And yay Jay Brannan. That CD is really amazing -- after reading some interviews though, he seems like a catty shrew, but that's okay. Have you seen Shortbus? And bonus: he's so damn cute!

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[info]penisxcore
2009-03-21 03:05 am UTC (link)
yeah, im close to graduating. im not really considering quitting. im very much dedicated to finishing school. im just saying i could have a little more padding in the bank account if i had the time to work more often. and as for my love/hate relationship with film, i just like bitching about it because it takes up sooooooo much time. it is truly gratifying though, so i should stop complaining.

as for shortbus, i saw it on my birthday like two years ago. loved it. and then jay brannan actually hit me up on myspace (unsolicited) because he found my profile through a friend or something. anyways, i got to see him play shortly thereafter and then i kind of forgot about him. stumbled across the album recently and immediately purchased it. im very pleased.

if his personality sucks, thats fine. i dont really have any plans of being friends with him. i think his cattiness probably comes from the "micro-fame" syndrome... you know, people who receive a lot of attention but really dont make that much money. so he leads a normal life but still has made quite a name for himself in the online community. im sure he gets bombarded to the point of having to put up some defense mechanisms that manifest in anti-social behaviour. quite a few people in the porn biz like that.

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[info]592311
2009-03-21 03:39 am UTC (link)
Well, I hope your income situation improves -- you can do it, in all that cheesy glory.

And I'm getting what you're saying about the whole don't-plan-on-being-friends-with-him bit; why does it really matter how these artists act in real life if they don't directly effect you? I don't know. I'm too reactionary sometimes, sorry.

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[info]penisxcore
2009-03-22 12:19 am UTC (link)
well, theres probably a threshold of shittiness that one can cross where ill be like "im no longer going to support your artistic merit." has jay brannan crossed that threshold? not that im aware of. maybe you know differently.

but thank you. my financial situation actually isnt that bad at the moment. it was kind of bad and now its sort of back to normal. now im just trying to chip away at the debt. hah.

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