me (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} penisxcore) wrote,@ 2008-12-28 11:12:00 |
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this fucking thing
so it looks like i dont really post here anymore. it looks like that because its true. but because its, you know, the holiday season and all, i thought i might hop on for an update. because i went back to see my family, which is an unusual thing these days. and while some good things and some bad things took place, i think i will focus only on the good here... because sometimes bad shit just isnt meant to share with the internet (not always true, but in this case i feel the judgement is fair).
but then writing about everything that happened is going to be kind of a bore. so im going to start with a couple things of some significance, and then less significance. and then im going to do one of those lists that people filled out in middle school and high school because it sounds kind of fun right now.
1. So back in my hometown of nevada city (i grew up in grass valley but the neighboring city is nevada city and we all kind of know each other), a fellow by the name of roger rents out a concert hall called the miner's foundry every year (well only 2 years so far) and invites everyone to come and have a reunion of sorts on christmas eve. so i did just that. i showed up with my younger brother, my step-sister, and her new boyfriend from south africa (who has a small mullet and is actually very fun to talk to). well, at this event, my half-brother's old band called offering to the sun (which sounds a lot like neurosis and which i fucking loved in high school), decided to do a reunion show about 3 or 4 years after they disbanded. and since i was surrounded at this event by people i went to high school with, it became an increasingly nostalgic experience. because i was more-or-less at a show, watching a band i was really into about 5 or 6 years ago, in the same place id watched them 5 or 6 years ago, and standing next to the same people id watched them with 5 or 6 years ago (with quite a few additions to the audience). so instead of really enjoy the music, i fell into the kind of post-modern reflection that comes about in such a situation: to think about how strange of a fucking time travel device that is except everyone is older, fatter perhaps, and a little less immediately emotionally involved in anything going on in the other's life. so when no music was playing i basically had less-than-five minute conversations with up to 30 people, all of whom i had some connection with in the past. and while this was a grand experience, i still have no idea what to think of it, because more than anything else it just made me feel...
2. Okay. So the next thing that happened really has no significance: I was jogging around the block my mother lives on (because i was staying with her for christmas and needed to get in some excercise on my little trip home). whilst on my first lap, i noticed two young boys, about 11 or 12 years old, skateboarding in and/or around their garage. when i ran past in my target-off-brand running shorts and some obscure metal shirt, these boys started to catcall me such as adolescents might do to an attractive girl they might happen to drive by. i smiled because it was mildly amusing and it appeared to me that they were fucking around. well... this behavior escalated with every lap i did (which was about 6 laps aka 1.5 miles). and by the 4th, i was stopped so that one of the boys could wrap his arms around me. by the last lap, i was asked whether i worked at Chili's, and when i replied, "No," one of them continued, "Well you should," and proceeded to shout out his phone number. Then when i was about 50 yards away, he started to run after me again, hug me again, and then slap me on the ass, saying, "Just want to make you feel welcome."
What do i make of this? i still have no idea.
Now on to the "list" (stolen from an LJ friend who i dont actually know but met once i believe):
oh man, these questions actually look pretty lame so this might be kind of boring
1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
i dont know. i guess ive never production designed a movie before and did this year. most of the "never before" stuff probably has to do with just learning things about film in school related situations.
2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
had none last year, have none this year
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no, but i recently found out that my cousin is pregnant. tommy pistol's wife also had a baby but im not super close to them. hes a good guy though.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
a classmate was stabbed to death, but again, not someone i was very close to
5. What countries did you visit?
the United States
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
A bachelor's degree
7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
this must have not been the most exciting year because nothing stands out as truly significant
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
getting through my intermediate film class in one piece... and without killing my partner.
9. What was your biggest failure?
well, ive not been doing so well financially this year. but i dont know whether thats really a failure. its just kind of been stressful
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
i got sick on and off for about a month. now that i think of it, this kind of coincided with my not working for almost a month.
11. What were the best things you bought?
probably food. thats been keeping me going
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
i took my classmate, roham, to his first death metal show and he started growling at his roommates as soon as i dropped him off back home.
13. Whose behavior appalled you?
people named jack lawrence
14. Where did most of your money go?
food and rent
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
barack obama winning the election
16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
there is not a song i listened to all year long. but there has been lots of car rides with placebo. and discovering eluveitie made me happy for a few months.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
i think im happier, but i really wasnt sad last year
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
write
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
stress out
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
i did already. with my mom's side of the family
21. How will you be spending New Years?
not really sure
22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
no. just kept it going.
23. How many one-night stands?
none. unless you count work in the evening.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
dexter. the office. metalocalypse. i discovered carnivale a few years late. but thats a pretty good show.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
i dont think i really hate anyone.
26. What was the best book you read?
i read so many books this past summer, i cant even remember. i think re-reading coin locker babies was fun since it is my favorite book of all time. right now im in the middle of philip roth's "portnoy's complaint." its very interesting and fun, but the fact that its based around a jewish upbringing lacks a certain relevance to me.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
eluveitie and dr. manhattan
28. What did you want and get?
another year of school out of the way
29. What did you want and not get?
probably a bunch of things i saw while window shopping that would not really effect my life in any real way
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
so far, "let the right one in" but theres a few movies i havent seen yet that i will hopefully catch soon: milk, slumdog millionaire, the wrestler, and that benjamin button movie
31. What did you do on your birthday?
i think i went to disneyland with dana and aiden starr
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
finishing my book
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
hah. the same as always. bad metal shirts and jeans. but now i have some fancier jeans and a nice jacket. oh... and converse.
34. What kept you sane?
exercise
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
charles derra
36. Who did you miss?
my little brother. just got to see him though
37. Who was the best new person you met?
charles derra
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
everything's a big deal until its over
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
fucking kill him. fucking kill him. i dont care if it hurts. yes i do, i want it to. fucking kill him. but make him cry like a woman (no particular woman)
so it looks like i dont really post here anymore. it looks like that because its true. but because its, you know, the holiday season and all, i thought i might hop on for an update. because i went back to see my family, which is an unusual thing these days. and while some good things and some bad things took place, i think i will focus only on the good here... because sometimes bad shit just isnt meant to share with the internet (not always true, but in this case i feel the judgement is fair).
but then writing about everything that happened is going to be kind of a bore. so im going to start with a couple things of some significance, and then less significance. and then im going to do one of those lists that people filled out in middle school and high school because it sounds kind of fun right now.
1. So back in my hometown of nevada city (i grew up in grass valley but the neighboring city is nevada city and we all kind of know each other), a fellow by the name of roger rents out a concert hall called the miner's foundry every year (well only 2 years so far) and invites everyone to come and have a reunion of sorts on christmas eve. so i did just that. i showed up with my younger brother, my step-sister, and her new boyfriend from south africa (who has a small mullet and is actually very fun to talk to). well, at this event, my half-brother's old band called offering to the sun (which sounds a lot like neurosis and which i fucking loved in high school), decided to do a reunion show about 3 or 4 years after they disbanded. and since i was surrounded at this event by people i went to high school with, it became an increasingly nostalgic experience. because i was more-or-less at a show, watching a band i was really into about 5 or 6 years ago, in the same place id watched them 5 or 6 years ago, and standing next to the same people id watched them with 5 or 6 years ago (with quite a few additions to the audience). so instead of really enjoy the music, i fell into the kind of post-modern reflection that comes about in such a situation: to think about how strange of a fucking time travel device that is except everyone is older, fatter perhaps, and a little less immediately emotionally involved in anything going on in the other's life. so when no music was playing i basically had less-than-five minute conversations with up to 30 people, all of whom i had some connection with in the past. and while this was a grand experience, i still have no idea what to think of it, because more than anything else it just made me feel...
2. Okay. So the next thing that happened really has no significance: I was jogging around the block my mother lives on (because i was staying with her for christmas and needed to get in some excercise on my little trip home). whilst on my first lap, i noticed two young boys, about 11 or 12 years old, skateboarding in and/or around their garage. when i ran past in my target-off-brand running shorts and some obscure metal shirt, these boys started to catcall me such as adolescents might do to an attractive girl they might happen to drive by. i smiled because it was mildly amusing and it appeared to me that they were fucking around. well... this behavior escalated with every lap i did (which was about 6 laps aka 1.5 miles). and by the 4th, i was stopped so that one of the boys could wrap his arms around me. by the last lap, i was asked whether i worked at Chili's, and when i replied, "No," one of them continued, "Well you should," and proceeded to shout out his phone number. Then when i was about 50 yards away, he started to run after me again, hug me again, and then slap me on the ass, saying, "Just want to make you feel welcome."
What do i make of this? i still have no idea.
Now on to the "list" (stolen from an LJ friend who i dont actually know but met once i believe):
oh man, these questions actually look pretty lame so this might be kind of boring
1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
i dont know. i guess ive never production designed a movie before and did this year. most of the "never before" stuff probably has to do with just learning things about film in school related situations.
2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
had none last year, have none this year
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no, but i recently found out that my cousin is pregnant. tommy pistol's wife also had a baby but im not super close to them. hes a good guy though.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
a classmate was stabbed to death, but again, not someone i was very close to
5. What countries did you visit?
the United States
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
A bachelor's degree
7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
this must have not been the most exciting year because nothing stands out as truly significant
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
getting through my intermediate film class in one piece... and without killing my partner.
9. What was your biggest failure?
well, ive not been doing so well financially this year. but i dont know whether thats really a failure. its just kind of been stressful
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
i got sick on and off for about a month. now that i think of it, this kind of coincided with my not working for almost a month.
11. What were the best things you bought?
probably food. thats been keeping me going
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
i took my classmate, roham, to his first death metal show and he started growling at his roommates as soon as i dropped him off back home.
13. Whose behavior appalled you?
people named jack lawrence
14. Where did most of your money go?
food and rent
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
barack obama winning the election
16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
there is not a song i listened to all year long. but there has been lots of car rides with placebo. and discovering eluveitie made me happy for a few months.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
i think im happier, but i really wasnt sad last year
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
write
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
stress out
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
i did already. with my mom's side of the family
21. How will you be spending New Years?
not really sure
22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
no. just kept it going.
23. How many one-night stands?
none. unless you count work in the evening.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
dexter. the office. metalocalypse. i discovered carnivale a few years late. but thats a pretty good show.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
i dont think i really hate anyone.
26. What was the best book you read?
i read so many books this past summer, i cant even remember. i think re-reading coin locker babies was fun since it is my favorite book of all time. right now im in the middle of philip roth's "portnoy's complaint." its very interesting and fun, but the fact that its based around a jewish upbringing lacks a certain relevance to me.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
eluveitie and dr. manhattan
28. What did you want and get?
another year of school out of the way
29. What did you want and not get?
probably a bunch of things i saw while window shopping that would not really effect my life in any real way
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
so far, "let the right one in" but theres a few movies i havent seen yet that i will hopefully catch soon: milk, slumdog millionaire, the wrestler, and that benjamin button movie
31. What did you do on your birthday?
i think i went to disneyland with dana and aiden starr
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
finishing my book
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
hah. the same as always. bad metal shirts and jeans. but now i have some fancier jeans and a nice jacket. oh... and converse.
34. What kept you sane?
exercise
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
charles derra
36. Who did you miss?
my little brother. just got to see him though
37. Who was the best new person you met?
charles derra
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
everything's a big deal until its over
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
fucking kill him. fucking kill him. i dont care if it hurts. yes i do, i want it to. fucking kill him. but make him cry like a woman (no particular woman)
